12:5:84
It’s mostly the tension I remember
elevator cables
stretching everything I felt
hi-lighting the absurdity of it all
by my helplessness
as you squirmed on the table
the huge lump of your stomach shrouded in white
forcing thru every muscle in your body to be free
and marvel at the beauty of life
in the sterile ferocity of the hospital light
I can remember saying
how
could I call myself a friend
when I did this to you
gasp for breath to steady myself
as the pain you transmitted thru my hand
made my small world spin
in ever increasing circles above my head
and you my beauty
stunned like some sacrificial beast
stretched out on some makeshift stainless
about to give up something of yourself
to an imperfect world
one
filled with the mysteries
of the heart and mind
the books
paintings
the temples
and mountains
of desires
and wants
the history of everything
since light
since cain
the jails
mad houses
the forward and the back
all the forces waiting
wanting
to come into their own in that first tiny gasp.
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